My Goals, Dreams & Desires...
I wake every morning with my head full of regrets and sorrows. But instead of punishing myself and feeling worse...I have learned to accept the fact that I am human and will (throughout my life) make many more wrong decisions. That way I can look toward the future, put away my past...and set new goals, dreams & desires. And everyday I think of more things to add to this list...but this is my main list that I would like to share with you:
To fall in love with a woman who will love me equally and want nothing but who I am...love me for my accomplishments, love me for my qualities and most of all love me for my faults. For I am only human, but I am full of love, full of laughs, full of fun...and ready to share all I have to offer with someone who will enjoy only who I am.
To buy a nice house with a yard that I can fence.
To have a porch swing that I can watch the sunrise from...and a deck swing that I can watch the sunset from.
To have a golden retriever.
To have a son I can raise and teach to play basketball and baseball and football...and to be there for him every step of the way. To hold his hand for his first steps...and shake his hand at graduation.
To visit Australia...and take lots of pictures...and for once have a REAL vacation.
To own a 911 Porsche (any year) with a spoiler...preferably black.
To make my ex-wife realize that it WAS possible for me to change and to prove her wrong by being happy again.
To play basketball on a team again...for just one season (at least).
To coach kids basketball (maybe YMCA or something like that)
To get my associates degree in journalism and to be able to write freely from my heart again...when ever I feel like it.
To be married outdoors in an orchard just as spring is starting and the white blossoms are blooming...under a large white archway.
These are just some of my dreams, goals & desires...that I work towards achieving everyday. Some may never come true...but I will know that at least in my mind they were real and that at least I tried the best I could to be happy.